in case someone still reads this

Life as of Now

Okay hello so it has been like 2 years or so anyway i am done with truck driving SICK and tire of living in such a small space with my dog and husband. My Husband is away doing contract work but coming back Tomorrow YAYNESS.

We had to give Gizmo away . . i miss my little bugger. My Birthday is thursday and i will be 23 . . . Where does the time go and i'm studying for the ASVAB lol i wanna see if i can get into Human Intel . . . i scored high enough on he practise test but the real test is on Tuesday and VERY FEW people qualify for that i would like to one day work for the CIA since it looks like i may not be able to have children i figure i will do all the dangerous jobs i have wanted to try and see where it takes me. I want another Dog and so does Colle he wanted to buy a rotweiler puppy for 100 . . . . I really want a beagle though. I am not taking on the responsibility of house training a puppy right now THAT is for sure. I kinda want another Parakeet but we need to get our own place before we worry about any of that.

I have been searching for a job and studying for the ASVAB . . it has been a little discouraging. The practise test was easy though Officer Woodruff was flabbergasted at my score but i was trying to explain i scored perfect on vocab and my math skills are off but he did not seem to listen oh well Tuesday will make me or break me cause if i can't get human intel i am not really intrested in anything else.

I am also working part time at Hays Hills Baptist Church in childcare i watch the 1 year olds sunday mornings and the 2-4 year olds on wen though one lady will be out wen and i will be with the 5-10 year olds. Well that is pretty much all that is going on

RAP

Christmas

So I've done it. I got Colle's Christmas present. I had it all planned out and he went up to Port Aransas and i exacuted my plan. I had to go work for the grouchy old lady one more time to get the money to buy it and she torchered me a lot this time . . . . I got to re iron a bunch of crap some other lady couldn't iron thats right someone else comes in and fails and she calls and asks me to pick up the pieces. I had to clean the oven and the cleaner was making me sick cause she didn't have any masks for me to wear. but i earned my measly amount of money and budgeted it out so i would have enough gas and be able to get Colle's present and i did it. I really dunno how but i did.

My body has been weird lately. I went to my brothers basketball game and afterwards i had a coke and went shopping to get Colle's present and i was so wide awake i came home finished getting it ready then crashed. I slept in got up for a little while and crashed again then got up for an hour and crashed again and i'm tired and i have had a headache almost constantly for almost a month now. I think i'm lacking vitamins or something but i keep falling asleep before i can find any. I'm actually going to bed again. I'm tired really tired and i miss Colle a lot and i want some tuna fish with mayo and pickle relish and hard boiled egg mixed together on toast . . . yeah and some iced tea and then i want Colle to hold me all night . . . yeah that would be good

<gasp>

okay to explain a confusing scenario

last week i think it was wedns. i was awakened by the phone ringing i got up got the phone the dog came bounding in and Colle was on it sounding crushed saying his Grandma had passed that morning and he needed me to come get him in Port A . . . okay babe i got to go pack some clothes and i will come get you do you need me to get you anything?

He went on about how we don't have enough money and he was upset and i was like don't worry babe i will figure it out and be there to pick you up around 12 okay? and he was like i guess it will take you that long to get here or something and told me to dress in my sunday best and i was like it's okay babe i know what i'm doing i gotta get things together.

After a few phone calls i got a hold of my mom who agreed to loan us money for the trip. Mrs Hoch sent me with some snacks and i went to pack my clothes and i got another phone call from Colle "you are packing your sunday best right? yers babe i promise i'm going to dress nice. Colle "not just nice i need you to dress your best" Me okay i got it babe are you doing okay? Colle "I'm fine i just gotta work so we can have some money"  me okay babe I love you

after two more phone calls of i hope you packed your sunday best and finally getting the money from my mom i'm finally off on the long car trip when i get there we get to waqlk around the amazing beach house and Colle took me up on the roof it was romantic

then as we were getting in the car he asked me if i packed my sunday best AGAIN and i told him i know how to dress myself

so we went to see Colles  grandma she wasn't dead she was on life support and Colle was heartbroken he was so upset by her condition my poor baby kept crying and i didn't know what to say i just held him. she made it through they stopped the bleeding took her off life support got her breathing on her own and she was doing pretty well when we left. we are going up there tomorrow to visit again. My poor Colle was so upset when he thought his Grandma was going to die.

It's an intresting sittuation when the one you love is hurting and you just don't know what to do. You really can't do anything to make it better

UPDATERS

So i think i found us an apartment

yeah now all i need to do . . . actually i already filled out the paperwork now i just need to get aprooved then MOVE AGAIN!!!!!!!! lol i LOVE moving . . . . yayness

okay so anyway yeah everything is going good may have a NICE little appartment soon with Carpet like Colle wants and it's nice. It's really big for a one bedroom and my little kitchen is sooooo cute so like it's not actually mine yet but i can envision the mineness of it and we may be able to move in tomorrow if everything goes good <grin>

Okay thats all the time i have . . . yeah i know i'm on a tight scedule now and tomorrow i might have to go look for furniture . . . . it NEVER ends

okay love you all i'm audi . . . peace